the best place

do you ever catch yourself in moments of realization?

my friends.
my friends mean the world to me.
its almost scary.
you know how i said i was thinking that if something happened to one of my closest friends, im not sure i could move from that place. isnt that scary? i want to know that i could move on. but i dont know that. my life is so dependent on them. a dependency i need to give to God. thats who it belongs to. but right now my friends are carrying that.
they hold me up. more than ever. and i know thats where God ultimately belongs, but my friends are sent to me by Him. so what if they were pulled out from under me. would i collapse into the arms of God, or would i begin the fast tumble down a steep hill? barreling over myself. getting more scratched up, and more dirty, and a little less of myself than i was to begin with.
is my identity found in the things God has given me, or the me God has given me?

is my heart where it needs to be? i know its not in a bad place. i know its in a good place. but is it in the best place??


and to finish it off, a quote from one tree hill:
"what if you are a big part of someone else's life, and you dont even know it."