Rigor mortis.

That is pretty much how I feel about the spirit of our ministry right now.

And it's pathetic. And it's frustrating.

It's like death has set in. We have zero participation, and it's making me so frustrated because you just want to force someone to want something that you want and you really can't. I mean its JUST church. It's JUST ministry. It's JUST voluntary is what that means.

How can you change the world if you can't even bring a 12-pack of soda to the church for a fundraiser?
It's not about the glory. It's never going to be.
It's about the heart.
It's about the passion.
And if you're looking for fame, then go somewhere else.

My passion hasn't gone anywhere though, so what happened to theirs??
How do you create passion in people? There is more to it then just having passion yourself. Because I am there. And there are very few people there with me.

I guess you get on your knees, and you don't get up until God moves.

In this bittersweet time, I must also share with you what is sweet.
The schedule, the material, the teachers, EVERYTHING has been lined up for the workshop on Saturday, and I am so so SOOO excited about what God is going to do through it. I got all my ducks in a row, and now I am stepping back and allowing God to move and make it His. This isn't about my agenda. EVER. It's about giving God the space He needs to do His will. I am just a vessel. Use me.

Frustration/Excitement.
Welcome to life.