I have let alot of people down. And I know it.
This is the thing... I am sure that I am doing what God wants me to be doing. And I am working on becoming the woman of God that He wants me to be. But I have had to lay down some relationships, so I can wholely focus on the season I am in. I am in a time of intense training. Intense study. Intense leadership. Intense opportunity. And I am getting through it pretty well. My success does not go unnoticed by my "family". But I worry that my friends don't see it.
I worry about maintaining friendships.
But I have come to the conclusion that those who love me really will see the growth in me. And I am doing what I don't want to do today, so I can do what I do want to do tomorrow. And when tomorrow comes, I pray that I am able to turn around and still find these people getting my back.
I love them more than they know.
I wish I had more time to spend with them.
But I have to step into what God has called me to do.
And I have to do it without doubt or regret.
And I need to do it with support.
And I need it to be okay.
Jessica, Amy, and Marideth in particular.... I love you guys so much.
I am sorry.
2 days ago
2 comments:
sometimes life requires sacrifices.
sometimes ministry requires sacrifices.
when you are moving into a new station in life, and others aren't going there yet, you need separation.
but remember that relationships are all we have. and changing the priority of relationships with others is a very delicate thing.
the intentions may be good, but be careful in the follow-through.
**but this all sounds exciting!
rememeber mary and martha. dont be too busy for the most important things in this life- the blessings and people God has given you. our most important goal cant be to see how much stuff we can fit into our daily planner. but its investing in the people God has brought into our lives for a special purpose.
the well dont need a doctor. its the sick that do.
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