WHAT?!?!?

... That is how this weekend is left me. Most of which is not for public attention.

However, let me recap the past week. My highlights include situations that affected me emotionally. So here we go.

church.
I was expecting five or more of my friends to come to church on Wednesday as my guests. I told everyone I was doubling the youth group population in one night. By the beginning of church, one friend had shown up. I became discouraged. During the last song, a hand touched my shoulder, and I turned around. One more friend had shown up. But I was still discouraged. What I had learnt by the end of the service is that I had to see that God had done enough. Bringing two of my friends to service is enough. He had been faithful. It is not about how I wanted the night to go, it is about how He wanted it. And it was good.

burnt cookies.
On Friday night, we had Benaiah rehearsal. Afterwards, a bunch of the girls came down to my apartment to spend the night. I cooked hamburger helper, and we watched Jubilee videos. If some of you had not heard, about a month ago, I entrusted my friends with some amazing cookies I was baking, and they let them burn. I wanted to cry. So this time, I told the girls they could make it up to me and bake me cookies while I was getting ready for bed. While I was in the bathroom, I heard the oven beep, and I heard Mo shout that the cookies were ready. When I came out about five minutes later, she turned to me and asked me if I had taken the cookies out. I almost fainted. Once again, my cookies had been left to blacken. I give up. No more cookies, fat man.

s'mores.
I love them.

speechless.
Do you ever go back and think about a conversation in which you were left with no words, when words would have been a really good thing to have at the time?? You're just left there staring at the person with nothing at all to say. Filled with the fear of even trying to say something that makes sense. And the moment ends. That was it. Your chance to say something profound, and nothing. Ahhh. Life.

lastly... commuter reading.
This is something I read while coming into work today. It hit close to home:
"But in real life, one of the most amazing things that can happen to any of us is to have a moment [...], where we realize that in spite of all our sincerity and drive, we're closing in on the wrong goal. And even better, to find out that our worst failure has been swallowed up in someone else's save. Thats repentance" (McLaren, The Secret Message of Jesus, 108).
Yikes. I pray for clarity.



Stay classy.