i guess i am just a worrier. thats why my friends call me whiskers.

So last night... the theme was lonely.
So here I am today to blog about it.

Talking to a friend last night, we were discussing our different loneliness. And throughout the night, my understanding of how I feel expanded. Alot of you know that my last relationship was intense, and it's still popping up randomly to bite me in the behind. But slowly, I am loosing myself of its grip. Now, for the first time in ages, I don't even like anyone. Noone. How strange is that. I've had "crushes" [how junior high] since my last relationship, but none have been fruitful. And yes, I know the last one was lame. Thank you to everyone who tried to convince me that it wasn't lame, but it was. But it's over, and I am supposing that that is a good thing. The "crush" came from the myriad of outside opinion I received, like friend recommendations of his. But the so-called crushee didn't even prove to be a good friend. So who wants that, right. So now what?? I don't even know who to turn my attention to. I guess it's time to learn how to not.

My worry about where I am right now is that there is little to keep my heart busy. I worry that I will begin to miss people that I shouldn't miss. And then where will I end up.
But then if I take a step back and look at my life... this feeling that I have completely comes into battle with what I heard from God on Sunday. So maybe, it is simply my first test. Will I pass??


Maybe.