and it probably would have been longer if my sweet little roommate hadn't complained. :]
A lot has happened since March 10th. Mainly, I was licensed as a pastor. Yup. My "title" (blech) is Associate Youth Pastor focusing on Girls Discipleship and Administration. Yes, the "blech" because title or position makes it sound like a job to me. And I don't need another one of those.
The biggest reality check with all that is that who I need to be is so much bigger than who I am.
Just let that sink in.
There is a painting on my desk to remind me of just that. But really, I need to be more. I guess we all need to be more. But the hardest thing is that I need other people to make it happen.
And I haven't done so well in dealing with other people.
I keep trying to talk about the practicalities of life, but I really couldn't care less right now. I have like 8 papers due by next Thursday. And I should probably be working on them. But I really don't care too much about it all. I am having trouble squeezing out any kind of emotion, good or bad. And struggling to be present. If you know what that means. The world just seems to be spinning around me, and I am trying to catch focus. It's like being on a merry-go-round and trying to keep your eyes on one thing, so it all looks a little less blurry. Just trying to get everything to come into focus instead of just emotionally (and spiritually, I suppose) feeling dizzy and sick.
So that's that. Aren't you glad you asked?
I do hope you're having a good one.
love,
me.
16 hours ago
3 comments:
so, i know about this amazing pastor from uganda whose cousin is the king of that country. he has already started over 2,500 churches and has traveled around the world preaching the gospel. he said, call me brother, dont call me pastor because titles separates me from the people. titles make people run behind closed doors and hide from the people and become too busy for the people. so, i dont want a title, i want the PEOPLE.
lauren, you arent your title, you are who God made you to be. who you need to be isnt too big for you to be, you are exactly how He wanted you to be. yeah, we can all be more, thats a goal that we wont ever stop trying to meet. even in heaven we won't be able to praise Him enough because thats all we are going to be doing.
we cant try to live up to a title, only live in the calling God has placed on our lives.
what is your ultimate goal in your ministry? whats your calling? to serve and lead the PEOPLE. before you had a title, thats what you did. after the title, thats what you will continue to do. serve His people. love His people. lead His people. hug and care for His people. teach His people. LOOOOVE His people. thats it. yup, the world is spinning crazy around us, but we know what to focus on- His commantment to us- to love. we cant let the devil distract us. thats all he is doing.
when everything seems crazy around you and it gets to be too much- do nothing, just enjoy the life God has given you, praise Him and stop to take a moment to realize you are so blessed.
love,
me
lol. whenever you wrote LOOOOVE, i could hear you saying it with your Alabamian accent.
thank you.
and p.s.: maybe it's time you register with blogger and not be the anonymous poster.
hehe.
it could be anyone in the world... how do you know its me????
one day i was going to set up an account, but i got as far as trying to decide the title, and my mind went blank, so i didnt do it. any suggestions??
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